Ability to speak in English or Japanese is my weakness. Japanese or English, both are very hard for me. Recently, I realize my English is getting worst.....grammar, vocab...are disappeared one by one. Japanese ? Huh...very2 bad. I think if I meet Japanese kids, they will laugh at me, at my words...I am the one who speak by using fully gestures...hands, head and so on. Now, I am editing my paper work, it was rejected many times by my sv...just because my English. A year ago, I felt ashamed when this happen, but now..not anymore..huh..how bad I am. A month ago, I keep thinking how to improve myself. I came here not only to get a certificate but also skills , as much as I can. Since that I started to do some exercise. I bought books..japanese grammar book, and comics (kanji/hiragana with translation). I put those books at beside my bed...Last week I got an electronics dictionary too. It was a present from the IEEE student colloquium that I attended last month. I won - best presentation award. I was surprised. Actually, I tried to remember everything before the presentation. I practiced all night long....during the practiced, I had over the limit time which was 7 mins. Because of that..on that day, I spoke very fast...and finally my presentation took 7 mins! Just after I end my presentation, the bell rang. Alhamdulillah, I won.
The dictionary is very good, but I have a problem which is, this dictionary is for the person who want to learn English. It has more than 5 languanges inside..but everything written in Kanji. Huh! Why it so hard to learn Japanese? I wish I can speak/writing/reading Japanese very well...
ahh...now I have another problem too..I want to write a paper..I have no idea at all...huh..English..why it is so hard?....h-E-L-p-M-e!!